Saturday, September 6, 2008

Raindrops On My Head

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothin' seems to fit
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

So I just did me some talkin' to the sun
And I said I didn't like the way he got things done
Sleepin' on the job
Those raindrops are fallin' on my head, they keep fallin'

I can't stop but have this song from BJ Thomas on my head when I was put in an awkward situation at work recently. You see, we don't really 'like' our boss, I mean, we don't hate THE BOSS, we might mock THE BOSS during our chit chats at the office (which seem to be aplenty since THE BOSS joined our organization) but deep inside, I truly feel that we don't 'hate' THE BOSS. We just wish that we can be as bitchy as THE BOSS is and get away with it like THE BOSS does; all the time. Yes, the bitching and getting away with it seem like luxury to us-we can never afford to have. So since we can’t follow THE BOSS'S trail, we mock THE BOSS. I mean, we need to react to this luxury THE BOSS has, and certainly acting the way THE BOSS does is just not the perfect reaction- we needed to react with whatever we have, in this case our mouths-to mock THE BOSS.

Now you must know that the mocking, I shall admit with shame, is therapeutic. The mocking sessions shall end with us sighing almost always simultaneously, continued with the very familiar ‘Nak buat macam mana, dia boss. Ikut je lah’. And then we sluggishly go back to our places and continue doing the things THE BOSS have asked us to do, often in a short time-frame. That, my dears, is how we cope with the torment from THE BOSS on a daily basis.

I do regard THE BOSS actions (not coming to work and asking people do THE BOSS’S job and THE BOSS taking credit for them) as something morally disgusting. They decrease THE BOSS’S value as a human being, at the same time shadowing whatever the rights THE BOSS may have done. To my personal humble opinion, I think THE BOSS is not ALL that bad. Since THE BOSS joined my organization, THE BOSS has made bold, drastic decisions, which have opened the eyes of the BIG BOSS, as THE BOSS projects often fish money in. Apparently, it is not only the eyes of the BIG BOSS were wide open-ours were too. You see, if we were given an ultimatum, on which to choose, our jobs or the profit/awards the organization gets, we would choose the former. We don’t really care if our organization has the highest rate in branding or the ability of the organization to reel in revenue 50% higher than it did last year, because, our pay were never affected by them, good or bad. Given that, THE BOSS’S grand projects and ideas on how to rev up the company’s image or revenue are always followed by too much work in too little time for US. THE BOSS will, as always ‘delegate’ the jobs and shall give us a humble time frame to complete it. That’s when our eyes become wide open, looking for THE BOSS flaws so that we can mock THE BOSS and do our jobs reluctantly, as a reaction.

Now, all this, has taken a toll on me. I want to make peace with the situation I’m in. So I have a boss with no conscience. So what? I’ll just do my job and let God deal with THE BOSS, like Papa used to tell me, ‘Let God deal with them, you just be you’. So, in pursuit of achieving tranquillity, I have to make peace with the situation I am in now. My approaches include taking lesser time joining the office chit chats, because they will be filled with ‘You know what THE BOSS did? I can’t believe THE BOSS did THAT! Omigod. I’ll make the boss suffer after this. I’m not going to finish the report THE BOSS has asked me to do’. I also try to not listen to one side of the story, should the story of THE BOSS reach my ears. And, I shall, complete my work.

These approaches of mine have not been welcomed by my colleagues. They might not have said it, but they sure look it. They don’t share with me the latest office gossips or drop in my room to say ‘Hey what has THE BOSS swarmed you with lately?’ or ‘Omigod, THE BOSS asked you to do THAT? How dare of THE BOSS’.

My justification, should they decide to interrogate me for not being rebellious, will be-hey, look, I can mock THE BOSS, I spit on THE BOSS doorway (no, I’ve never done that), I can puncture THE BOSS’S tyres (haven’t done that one too) and I can burn THE BOSS’S laptop. But why should I? Why? It’s bad enough that THE BOSS’s a bitch, but mocking THE BOSS everyday and end up doing your job reluctantly won’t be good in the long haul. It will make you lose your respect for your work, it will ridicule your superb working ability and it too, will turn you into a bitch like THE BOSS, without the luxury THE BOSS has (ability to skip work and get away with it). So you have two choices-To perform or to rebel. I chose the former.

Ok, I might not the most pious person on earth, but I do believe God has plans. I decided to do my job, with the desire and intention to learn, and hope that one day, even if my job is not being recognized, as THE BOSS will be claiming that THE BOSS did the job, I will still have God who is my witness and that is enough. However, this heroic leap I’ve taken has caused me to lose my colleagues’ trust .But then again, God as my witness, I have no bad intention. I just don’t wanna be a bitch like THE BOSS and I’m doing it for me. So I guess they just have to live with it.

When I was in the shower, one late afternoon after work, I had that song in my head. How apt, I thought-‘Just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed, nothing seems to fit’. I try to perform, but that has cost me my colleagues. And now I don’t ‘fit’. Funny how the world works. Very Funny. Even funnier that I have a theme song for the situation I'm in now!


Please note that the words 'bitch' or 'bitchy' in this post should not suggest the gender of the THE BOSS. They don't necessarily mean that THE BOSS is female. They are terms used for dramatic effects, to replace 'horrible' :) Please take note.


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